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Bonjour! Je m'appelle Bing Rui. Je suis un chinois singapourien. J'ai vingt et un ans. Je étudie la psychologie à Université de Technologie de Nanyang. Je parle anglais et chinois. Je aussi comprends le anglais et chinois. Je ne parle pas bien français. Je veux comprendre et parler bien français. J'aime dormir, manger, et faire de la natation. J'aime aussi jouer de la guitare. Je déteste les cafards. J'ai une souer. J'ai une bonne amie. Vous?

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH Depressed? Stressed?

I am desperately in need of some release! Recently, I have been chaining myself to the shackles of endless readings. The thing is, I do not feel that I am working hard. Keeping my readings up to date is the correct thing to do, right? If that is the case, I am having problems meeting basic standards. Stress seems to be written all over my face, although I do not feel it. I think I might be a little depressed. Am I? Maybe, I just want to be depressed so that I can sulk over how wordy University life is. National Service... What have you done to me? Isolated me from the academic world for two years, you have. For this, I am not pleased. Extracted layers and layers of my fats, you did. For this, I am glad. GAAAAAAAAAAAAH! Who cares? I just need my release!

The SIGNS of the TIMES

INTRO
Many times, you will hear, "If so and so is true, don't you think this is true too?" This is logic. However, an argument can seem logical, but the argument may still not be true. Prophecy is the foretelling or prediction of what is to come. Most prophecies are vague statements. It is up to the readers how they want to interpret what the writer wrote. The readers' interpretations may differ from the writer's actual intention. Sometimes, when some prophecies APPEAR to have been fulfilled, people become expectant of the fulfillment of the next prophecy. This may lead to expectancy and confirmation bias. We should not always believe everything we hear or see. We should stop to think, "What is the source? What is the evidence? Is the claim reasonable or extreme? Could bias contaminate the conclusion?" These are the kind of questions we should ask, before we make our decision.

HELL?
I am puzzled. Can anyone tell me what HELL is? Has anyone been to HELL? Is HELL a bad place? Are we attempting to keep the law, to be righteous, to do good, just so that we can be saved from HELL?

"WE HAVE SINNED"
I totally agree with this statement. I have made many mistakes throughout the 21 years of my life. Greed, Sloth, Envy, Lust, Gluttony, Wrath, and Pride. I am guilty as charged. What about you?

"WE WILL BE JUDGED"
Well, we are judging one another all the time. I believe that one day, we may be judged, probably not by a PERFECT and MORAL God, but by our imperfect self. We may look back on our life, at our mistakes, deeds, regrets, accomplishments, and start to ponder, "Have I been leading my life the way I wanted to lead it? On the whole, am I contented with my life?" Anyway, how do we know that God is PERFECT and MORAL? Is there any substantial evidence? What is PERFECT?

"WE CANNOT SAVE OURSELVES"
[QUOTE: To be saved by good work, or the keeping of the laws, or through self-righteousness is like a man clinging on to a chain and hanging over cliff. The chain is as good as each link. One broken link will send the man down the precipice to this death. One sin is enough to send the sinner into hell for ever - "For whosoever shall keep the whole law, and yet offend in one point, he is guilty of all." (Jas 2:10)]
What are we saving ourselves from? Hell? What about ex-convicts? Why should a repentant ex-convict not get a second chance in life? Does it mean that he should be condemned for all eternity for the mistakes he once made?

"WE WILL ALL END UP IN HELL"
"I said therefore unto you, that ye (you) shall die in your sins: for if ye believe not that i am he, ye shall die in your sins."(Jn 8:24)
"... to go into hell, into the fire that never shall be quenched: Where their worm dieth not, and the fire is not quenched." (Mk 9:43-44)
I have indeed sinned in my life and will probably add more to my name in future. So, if I were to believe in Him, does that mean that I need not have to die in my sea of sins (eg. rape, murder, arson, kidnapping, robbery, etc)? Oh where, oh where has my sea of sins gone? Oh where, oh where can it be? Does it mean that the sins to my name have been written off and I can go to heaven? Are we deluding ourselves that the crimes did not take place? Should we not take responsibilities for our own actions? Do your sins not make up part of who you are? What about your deeds and accomplishments? Are you going to write that off too?

"WE CAN BE SAVED THROUGH THE LORD JESUS CHRIST"
I do not disagree with the statement. However, is believing in Jesus the only way? Are humans so frail that we are not able to help ourselves? The thing is, what are we saving ourselves from?

REPENTANCE:
"I tell you, Nay (No): But, except ye (you) repent, ye shall all likewise perish." (Lk 13:3)
"Repent ye (you) therefore and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out..." (Acts 3:19)

blot out: to make indistinguishable; obliterate: to blot out a name from the record.


Repentance: To repent is to have a change of view regarding God and our sins, and be willing to give up our sins. (their definition)

VERSUS

Repentance: To feel sorry, to regret your actions and to change your life for the better.

"Your sins shall be obliterated if you repent and be converted. If you do not, you shall perish."

What do you think?

This blog post is based entirely within the context of the booklet "The SIGNS of the TIMES" - Shalom Baptist Church. Copyright 2002 by Y.T. Wee.
This entry is just my personal interpretation of the contents inside this booklet.

I am building castles in the air. POOF! It is no longer there.

I am there, but I do not belong. I am alone, but not lonely. I can do small talk, but I cannot connect. I can make friends, but not know them. Am I detaching myself, or am I being detached? I will still try, but will I succeed? Only two and a half weeks have passed, ten and a half weeks to go. If it still persists, perhaps it is time, again, to say, "hello!"

HW101: Craft of Writing

"To emote, not to be remote, is writing." LOL. This quote may not make sense, but it sure has a NICE ring to it! Writing can be written from something or nothing at all. Well, you see, this is the fun of writing. You can write absolutely anything in this world, and beyond or you can also write about nothingness.

Today, I had my very first tutorial on HW101, Craft of Writing. One of the exercise was to come up with a quote about writing. So, my group came up with a few and... DING! I suddenly got an inspiration from reading about the myths of writing and came up with the quote above. I was shocked when someone asked me what is EMOTE. Well, to tell you the truth, I was not confident whether the word, EMOTE, existed. But, I am quite sure I heard it somewhere. Deciding not to take any chances, I consulted the professor. "Ma'am, is there such a word, EMOTE?" She thought for a bit and gave me a "I don't think so" look. Sullenly, I scrapped my quote. However, out of curiosity, I decided to check out the word at dictionary.reference.com and there it was, EMOTE.

EMOTE: 1.To show or pretend emotion: to emote over the beauties of nature.
2. To portray emotion in acting, esp. exaggeratedly or ineptly; behave theatrically: The actress emoted for all she was worth.

"I Only Want To Be With You..." and there was tears in my eyes... I am really stupid, ain't I?

I had a great birthday! 80 bucks from my parents! My kite soared like an eagle, and it ROCKS! Eating without forks and spoons is primal and COOL! Our skin got darker while we were lazing around, under the sun! A black shirt, studded with pictures for display purposes! A brown, leathery feeling, non-sling bag! Pineapple orange smoothie is an excellent choice for a thirst quencher! A deformed slice of R.G. cake from Takashimaya is hilarious and so SINFUL! A fake Rubik's Cube card! Black, 1 litre, Nike Water Bottle! Dozo Restaurant serves well and serves great food! Escargots! Sashimi! Tataki Beef! Truffle Soup! Foie Gras! Beef Tenderloin! Lamb Shank! Mango Sorbet! Fruity Tea! CHOCOLATE FUDGE CAKE and Vanilla Ice-cream! A blue, striped, prison shirt from my sister! And a bagful of birthday wishes! :D

I am in the 4th stage

I might be having some mild depression, I think? Each time I look into the mirror, jump, land, see ripples created by the flaps on my tummy, I feel fat. Despite sleeping 8 solid hours a day, I feel tired, lethargic in fact. I struggle to open a book (Readings in Social Psychology), only to close it minutes later. I trudge around like the zombies in L4D, lifeless, just waiting to be shot in the head. I feel like I am in my FBO all the time. Heavy, stuffy, burdened. All I want to do, is do nothing at all. My mind is filled with worries and queries like, my parents' health, university life, future GPAs, my lack of drive, money, and other random thoughts.

Well, I have been living in DENIAL, thinking that I have lots of time, pretending not to see that with passing day I spend idling, I am actually one day closer to Uni life. Then, it came to a point where I got ANGRY with myself. I planned to do so much, yet I have done so little. In fact, I have yet to do some of those things. Then, for things that I have yet to do, I started BARGAINING with myself. "Don't take these things away from me yet, I need time to make things right. I'll give a part of myself just to make things happen." Now, I'm in the DEPRESSION stage. I guess that leaves me with ACCEPTANCE. I'll just have to learn to accept the bitter truth about time and life.

A post 5 days too late

Yay, i suppose? I passed my driving test with only 6 demerit points. I am happy and troubled. Happy? I finally passed. Troubled? My driving skills will soon rust. I guess it is time for me to start hunting for lucky draws, or maybe start buying TOTO, pray for some divine intervention, so that I will be able to get a car to drive and hone my skills. TOTO, lucky draws, here I come!